16065521Wild Awake by Hilary T. Smith
Release Date:May 28, 2013
Publisher: Katherine Tegen Books
Source: Library
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Things you earnestly believe will happen while your parents are away:

1. You will remember to water the azaleas.
2. You will take detailed, accurate messages.
3. You will call your older brother, Denny, if even the slightest thing goes wrong.
4. You and your best friend/bandmate Lukas will win Battle of the Bands.
5. Amid the thrill of victory, Lukas will finally realize you are the girl of his dreams.

Things that actually happen:

1. A stranger calls who says he knew your sister.
2. He says he has her stuff.
3. What stuff? Her stuff.
4. You tell him your parents won’t be able to—
5. Sukey died five years ago; can’t he—
6. You pick up a pen.
7. You scribble down the address.
8. You get on your bike and go.
9. Things . . . get a little crazy after that.*
*also, you fall in love, but not with Lukas.

Both exhilarating and wrenching, Hilary T. Smith’s debut novel captures the messy glory of being alive, as seventeen-year-old Kiri Byrd discovers love, loss, chaos, and murder woven into a summer of music, madness, piercing heartbreak, and intoxicating joy. – Goodreads


I’m not sure what I was expecting from this novel, but I did not get it. It was rough, it was gritty, it was almost impossible to read at points. Kiri Byrd is a girl whose sister died when she was 12. Kiri is in a band with her friend Lukas, who she happens to have feelings for. Their band is entered into a battle of the bands while Kiri is also practicing a big piano piece for an upcoming recital. During this time, her parents are out on a cruise and her brother is at college, but she has made it clear to the reader this is fine, she stays home alone all the time.

What isn’t fine is when Kiri gets a strange phone call involving a person who knew her sister. This escalates the spiral Kiri was already on. Her parents are extremely neglectful, her sister’s death affects her in ways she has never touched upon and now this stranger is calling saying he knew her sister and he has a box of her shit. During this time pe1148067_10102788992049471_1856267276_oriod, she has a falling out with Lukas, finds a new love interest and has an extremely dark time period in her life.

The problem I have with this book is not the typical problem I’ve seen in reviews. The problem I’ve seen in reviews is the heavy drug usage. That did not faze me because it suited the character. Hi, it’s pot usage, whatever. This part to the right made me LOL, mostly because I know that person.

But there was a deep, dark portrayal of not only her character, but those around her, including a new love interest, Skunk, that never really got handled. Plus, when her parents do come back they’re like “oh, yeah, we should have told you. MEH! LETS PUT YOU IN THERAPY BUT NEVER REALLY TALK ABOUT IT” The problem I ultimately have with the novel is that it didn’t leave me fulfilled. I left with more anger than anything else.

While I recommend this book, there are some strong reservations.